. . .about gaining competence in some area.
No, wait. That’s not it. That’s not what I meant at all. What I mean is:
I’m gaining competence and I recognize it. I feel it. I feel it when I ride, when I think about riding, when I get out of the car at the stable, tack up Mopey, and climb on Mopey’s back. I don’t dread doing this stuff incorrectly, worry about making mistakes, feel like kid who is mostly going to do things wrongly and awkwardly most of the time.
I don’t feel like I’m going to drop the ball. I don’t feel like it is inevitable that I’ll miss soemthing or fall down. It just feels like. . . well . . . weirdly normal!
Is this what competent people feel like?
Are there any competent people out there who can assure me that this is normal????
(Meanwhile, Sam the cat is behind my computer screen, grasping gently with his paws in a half-hearted attempt to snag something, something like my hands as I type on the keyboard)